Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Suzy's Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Couple of Days

Do you ever have a week where you feel like you have it all together?  Like everything is going right?

Me neither!

But last week. . .


Last week I had it together even less than I usually do.

Last week I was headed down a path that could have made me the poster child for depression.

I crawled back into bed after Jerry was at work and the girls were off to school.  I was sure no one would miss me, and I was having me a big-time pity party because no one "needs" me anymore.  They can all pretty much tie their own shoes and wipe their own noses and keep up with their own stuff. ( . . or at least they could if they wanted to, which is a whole different post.)

And my circumstances were ripe for pity.

My laptop crashed.

My (new) dishwasher suffered a plastic item meltdown that threatened a major repair.

And for bonus points:

I dropped my cell phone in the toilet.

So I spent a morning hiding from life under the covers.

But then!

I remembered that I had a successful backup of my laptop the day before it crashed, and another one from the evening I had gotten back from my scrapbooking crop (whew!)

Jerry managed to scrape off all the plastic and the horrible, horrible smell is slowly leaving the dishwasher.

And my cell phone is still working (and has been disinfected.)

And even though my kiddos may not need the level of care that they once did, they still need me.  Even when they act like they don't.  I just have to remember that this a marathon, not a sprint, and the race is to be run with endurance.

So thank you to my friends who helped pull me out of my funk, and thank you, Jesus, for your never-ending mercies that are new every morning.  Now I am looking forward to today, and whatever character-building things it brings.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

The Big Picture

You know and I know that there have been quite some large gaps in my posting schedule (ha, ha, ha-ha-ha - "schedule" - as if. . .) for quite see time now.  Yes, summer was busy, just like always, and I have been trying to get all my ducks in a row to be able to get a job, but that just hasn't panned out the way I envisioned.  And if I am honest with myself, that is one of the reasons I have not posted.  It is quite a downer to not be able to find a job after investing so much time to change fields.  This season has been, and still is, an object lesson in waiting on God's timing in my life.  And it is hard for me.  Partly because I had such a vivid picture in my mind of how this was going to work out.   And it has not turned out that way at all.  

But. . .

God is sovereign.  And while I am not where I though I would be, God is still moving me forward, on His timeline, and the picture that has emerged is still beautiful, even if it is not what I had in mind.  And what I am learning is that there are many things that I now have time to do and notice that I would have missed if my plan was the ultimate plan.  And so I am grateful to God for his plan, even if it takes me awhile to acknowledge it.